Only Thinking of Himself

But the sad part really was losing a pilot and the bomb aimer that never should have happened. Our mid-upper gunner avoided us all the way through POW camp. He was only thinking of himself. And I opened the gate, begging him to come and he was travelling the other way and so then I knew I’d had it and then I tried to get through to the skipper to tell him I had to go out of the... out to the turret and the intercom wasn’t working. You know the thing that has bothered me most all the time was opening my turret and seeing my mid-upper gunner going out the front. That’s a... I’ve never forgotten that. Never forgiven him either. You know, before... before we went on “ops” together, we... I used to visit him in... in his home in London and we were pretty good buddies. Being both gunners, why we had something in common. He did the wrong thing and he knows it and he knew it and he lived with it. We both lived with it. He’s dead now. I’m the only one left.