His Emotional State

Of course this was one of your great worries. And the thing that I hadn’t foreseen and which affected me quite a bit, was the fact of being completely cut off from anyone I’d ever known before. In other words nobody that knew of my existence previously, knew whether I was dead or alive and including my parents. And you had this feeling of terrible loneliness. Especially if you came to a messy end and nobody knew you had been alive for all these weeks. And there was a terrific urge to, desire to make the facts known to your parents or to somebody but of course that was impossible. And so you just has to endure it.

Interviewer: I suppose the only way that you might have gotten that information across would have been to surrender to the Germans.

Oh yeah but that would be fatal for your friends. So that was completely out. It would be acceptable except for that.