Then when the first atom bomb was dropped, the guards kept on
screaming about (inaudible) which are the bombers. And then they
thought with Truman coming in, there was going to be a major
improvements on the relationship. But after that,
they decided that Truman wasn't a friend after all. And we
seemed to see that the guards were a little less, they just
didn't show the same stability that they'd had earlier. And
when the first bomb dropped, a lot of them sort of said, well,
it's over. And then they came back on really strong and then
the second bomb, of course, that ended that and they pretty well
deserted the camp. And we were sort of left on our own. Uhmm,
we commandeered a train to take us to Tokyo. They... but then
the American aircraft flew over and dropped, bombers dropped
parcels and food and what not to us in the camp. So we knew
that that portion was finished.
Interviewer: What was your reaction when you
realized it was over?
I don't know that I, I think because of the circumstances over
that period of time, emotions were very difficult to, they
never showed. I think that, you just took everything - the good
things and the bad things, sort of in your stride. You didn't
know how to handle it. And I know that I had great trouble
after getting home to even appreciate humour, and I don't
know, it just, it just took a long time to recover from that
mental circumstance.
Interviewer: When you realized that it was over, when did you
find out how badly you had deteriorated?
I guess maybe, the problem, one problem I had was that I hadn't
realized how much sight I had lost. Because there was nothing
to read and there was nothing to look at and so I guess that was
the greatest shock when I got out and I thought I could drive a
car and I couldn't. It was wrong and I think it was, that was
the major problem. And the other problem was claustrophobia.
I just couldn't get on a bus with people, I couldn't do that.
But, I think it was primarily to do with the visual problem. I
hadn't realized that I had lost so much sight.
Interviewer: What caused you to lose as much sight as you did?
Well it was diphtheria to start with and also malnutrition and I
have optic atrophy and I don't have hardly any sight in this eye
and seven percent in this other eye. But..., I think that was
the most disturbing thing that I experienced was that I wasn't
able to do the things that I had looked forward to doing, when I
got out of the camp.
Interviewer: Mr Purse, what do you, were you ever told how much
you weighed at liberation?
I think I weighed 108 lbs.
Interviewer: And what would your normal weight have been?
About 155, 160 I guess, which is what I weigh, I haven't changed
much in weight.
Interviewer: So you were about 50 lbs or so underweight at
liberation.
Yes, but you have to understand at that time, I'd have a 40 inch
waist with the edema and water. I don't know how much water I'd
have on me, unbelievable, the amount of water. The edema would
build up so much that it would just go right through your bowel.
And of course, more than that, a lot of us had to get clear of
these round worms that we had right through us. Unbelievable,
but you be, wake up choking and the damn worm would be coming out
of your mouth. Uhmm, it's a, I just really find it difficult to
believe, and I say this to my wife, "I can't honestly believe I
survived it. I'm not that kind of person. How could I live
under those circumstances and, and survive". I know it happened
but I find it very difficult to believe that it happened to me.